today was another day of NPU game with other school.. i was in the team.. was shocked and surprise.. hahaha.. i felt that i didn't play the game well even though i score 2 and assisted 1 which contribute to almost half of the score.. we lose damn badly.. the score was 7-15.. haiz.. i dun noe why today i played in a way that seems different from wat i usually play becuz most of the time i had to run alot but today i felt that i run onli abit.. i find it strange maybe becuz i was asked to play dip.. haiz.. i missed a few disc which i should have gotten it.. damn.. feel so pissed off with myself.. was damn upset.. haiz.. but surprisingly China praised me for the 1st time.. after a very nice catch i felt.. hahaha.. so was abit cheer up.. but in fact.. i was feeling down the whole time.. but i dun wan anyone to noe it so i be like myself.. acting as if nothing had happen.. haiz.. i was wondering how am i be able to train up till aaron standard which is far far way better than me.. i feel so uneasy when OXY sae that i had to replace aaron position for that day.. i was shocked at 1st.. how can i replace him.. he is a faster runner,better disc reader,better lay-outer,better jumper and also his cutting for disc and his passing.. how can i be like him.. i dun think i am up to standard.. but i tried my very best to run faster, read better, jump higher.. but i juz couldn't be like him.. i felt so down.. haiz.. but who noes that i am down? no one... haiz.. maybe i look always cheerful to em.. in between e match i was injured by the ACSI player name IZ.. he knee me hard on my leg which make me unable to run and jump like normal.. but i still hang on to it.. y? for the sake of NPU.. becuz if i cannot endure the pain, how can i endure constant lay-out which aaron always do even if his hand is injured.. i felt that aaron is a great motivation for me to push myself to my Extreme limits.. after the point i was sub out and Stonez came over to help me ease the pain.. i felt very happy becuz in NPU there is always plp looking after one another.. i feel that i had to train more on my running,jumping,reading of disc and also lay-out.. i hope i can train up to aaron standard so i will be able to be a great help to NPU.. haiz.. after the whole thing we celebrated alfred bdae for him.. hahaha.. even though at that moment i still keep my smiles on my face but i still cannot forget those discs that i missed when we will in match.. and i am feeling that i shouldn't be thinking of myself that i am the dip so i can forget abt cutting in to help.. i think today was a bad day for me.. haiz.. felt so upset.. even though its over i think i wun be able to forget today.. cuz i would not like to have the same mistake made again.. thanks for viewing my blog.. cya.. have a good day...