hahaha.. training was fun... haiz.. dun think i perform well... hmm.. gonna work harder for IVP.. cuz maybe gonna take a short break 4 frisbee or end it.. haven really decided on wat yet... haiz.. troubled over mani things!!!!!!!!

haiz... nth much to talk abt meet up with kellyjiejie at semb to eat and after tat play truth or dare.. haha.. knew something liao.. abt fruit juice!! haha.. den be4 tat zheng ask me to go chalet with em.. it's been a long time since i see em.. haiz... but dun noe wanna go anot.. haiz... see how it's goes bahz.. i will give em reply asap.. latest by next week..

sleepless night once again.. i dun noe how could i solve this problem.. but i need to find a way somehow.. thing wun be going to be as simple as i thought.. but some frens always sae i think too much.. so i dun noe wat should i do.. things are so complicated...

i had been controlling myself... nt to text u or wat cuz i really dun noe wat i should do... haiz.. life sux for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A song tat is by kelly jiejie.. hahaha... nice song.. but i dun noe how to upload the video up here.. hahaha.. so noob right.. hahaha.. watever lahz.. this show how i feel now.. but not the crying part of the song hor... things isn't going as i wish...
爱海滔滔
演 唱:陈浩民

试着去努力
鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气
没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒
根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚
还是找到了我
排山倒海来袭
一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜 不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

试着去努力
鼓起勇气放弃你
总是不争气
没有这么快学会安静
就连眼泪时刻在提醒
根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚
还是找到了我
排山倒海来袭
一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜 不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好
总有一天你会看到
爱和海掀起惊天巨涛
我会以无坚不摧地力量 让你知道
一定是我不够好
所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角
躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好
什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜 不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

life is not gonna be as simple as we wish for it to be... nothing in life will go as what we wish or hope.. and normally a damage dealt to the heart will leave a scar behind or maybe something deeper? once hurt, our heart will form a barrier to protect itself and hence preventing itself from getting hurt.. and after that, thing hardly get back to normal as the heart deep in has a different view in life.. as for me.. i felt that why can't i end my life... by ending it, it will solve lots of problem that i am facing right now.. but i noe that there is gonna be ppl hu will be sad for me if i am dead.. ppl like my family, my dearest LYNN jiejie+Crystal, Kelly jiejie... and maybe some close NPU buddy?? i dun noe but those in front de i am sure that they will be sad..

haiz... trying to forget u is so hard and difficult and painful.. but wat can i do? ur heart is already with someone and i dun stand a minor place in ur heart also.. so i can onli try to forget abt u and also hoping that u will have a better life ahead.. haiz... why cann't life be more simple..

i had finally made up my mind.. the decision i will not type out here.. and onli a few ppl knew abt wat is my finally decision.. and i am gonna disappear into my own world.. haha.. unless i had really did wat i wanted den i will be back.. so cya my beloved blog and those hu had been visiting it..

things are bothering me this few days.. having problem sleeping and wasn't feeling well.. some ppl sae this and some sae tat.. mani told me something which i dun noe whether should i listen anot.. haiz... think i will be going into isolation policy le..

haven been updating for 2 days cuz i went to stay overnight at aaron hse so didn't update much.. hahaha.. alfred was the joker for jubeat.. he is the one and onli hu "PASS" hot limit.. hahaha.. slowly guess what it meant bahz.. training was fun as usual.. haiz.. injured all over something i wish also cuz i dumbly thought physical pain will make me forget abt emotional pains.. yah.. a song i created but dun noe how to cont.. hahaha... so feel free to help me cont bahz..
Song i composed:
Bold means higher pitch
我一直都在想着你
但是你不懂
在我脑海里
已装满了
你的样子
但是你却伤了我
让我的心再度死去。 YeEYe
爱是什么东西
有谁能告诉我
好让我不在，因它
受到伤害...
我不懂要这么做
才能得到你的心
多么希望你能
接受我的爱。。
haiz... still quarrel with parents.. dun noe can get my new phone mahz..

yup.. hurt badly be it physically or emotionally.. should had infer ur reply.. haiz... now i have totally no mood to things.. onli feel like eating till i drop dead... that my dinner and i am still feeling hungry after tat...


hahaha.. this should go to stomp?

haiz... rest as told... haiz.. y cann't i juz had a reply from u?? Even if it is a no, we will still be frens... i juz hoping 4 a reply

haiz.. today have match with RJC... yah.. win the match.. but wasn't happy with my gameplay... today was quite emo lahz.. becuz of some reason which i think some fren will feel it or notice y? yah... that's all for the day... gonna rest as promise...

haiz... now at aaron hse.. hahaha.. staying over.. yah.. hoping for u to reply my qns.. haiz.. awaiting for it...

wat done is done... so i wun think much abt it... yah... thanks to AARON,ALFRED,zXgChan,CALOS,KELLY... for lending me ur ears... and giving me advices ya... thanks alots

haiz... things are getting complicated.... frens advice me to go 4 it faster.. didn't noe why muz i kena this type of thing... damn it... hate e shyt of it...

haiz... i tot all things is sort out but it isn't it is now more and more troubles flowing out from nowhere.. hate those ppl hu 口不对心的王八蛋... now i think i will change my previous post de stuff.. e second onwards all muz change liao... time to think of stuff once more...

finally sorted out my thing in mind and heart... haiz.. ytd night from 1030 sort till 1am.. haiz.. den off my phone all that.. but never tot a sms might come and ask me to call... felt damn bad... ps arx... really didn't meant to ignore ur msg... hiaz... life is unpredictable.. now i am sure of somethings... firstly, my second half will gonna be u... even if u rejected me, i wun give up... secondly, NPU is something which i will nt give up no matter wat... lastly,hope u will accept me...

hahaha.. today was a ok day for me as i get to mahjong with wx, ivan and junny.. play a bet of drinks.. hahaha.. won 2 drinks.. ya.. so it's ok lahz.. but missed a call.. hahaha.. ps for nt picking up cuz phone charging.. and FYI, i am not ok.. yah.. haiz.. k tat all le.. gonna go in deep thoughts once again.. haiz... thinking of when, where and how.. haiz... MIA time...

thinking of things at night is the best i think.. cuz if nt i will be bored to death... since monday after training, i have been thinking of things and sorting out my heart and plan and finally till today i realise tat all my things revolves ard u.. and i had a damn 2pid thing tat goes into my mind while i am thinking.. some of my frens noe wat it is.. but i am sure kelly jiejie knows it well.. hahaha.. yea kelly refers to the kelly in NPU.. haiz... most of my fren ask me to go for it.. but i am afraid of going for it due to some reason... which had been bothering me... same few ppl noe why... hahaha... thanks to those who were there showing concern to me,giving me advice,hearing my stupid thing out.. ya.. should i write the name out?? maybe i should... THANKS TO: AARON,CALOS,KELLY,JIAJUN,WENDY,JIANXING.... this are those few ppl hu noe the full story of me... yah... so cya.. now gonna think careful of every move tat i will be taking... and also thanks to those hu show me concern but i dun wan u guys to worry... those ppl are... THANKS TO:zXgChan,Junny,SY...

meeted up with jx and sy... hahaha.. so long no see.. sy become fatter and jx become more muscular.. haha.. onli i didn't change much.. haha.. k.. gonna mia from now... cya..

k.. it feels good to be at home but it is also good to be at loft... hahahaha.. wat ever lahz.. now in mind onli revolves around a qns.. should i or should i not... if i should, i am really worried abt tons of stuff... but if i should nt, i am afraid of other things.. haiz.. maybe i should stop my activies juz to think of it bahz.. tag my blog if u are giving me advices