back to blog... things hasn't been going well for me for this whole week.. but life still have to go on, i still had to train hard for IVP... Training had been fun and exciting but every now and then,for the past few days,I had been try to be as cheerful as possible but it is all an act which i tried to fool myself and also not to let anyone know abt it.. but how long can i fool myself?? haiz... why muz all the unhappy memories flash back... why muz it flash back constantly and kept flashing since monday.. tons of things that will make me drop tears... but still hold it back as i am a man, a man can only shed blood but not tears... when can the unhappy memories stop flashing back.. cann't i have a peaceful time...tons of thing came into my small and packed mind.. which make me feel damn troubled and dun feel like moving on in life... had a urge to juz stop my life story right here in 2010... but things aren't so simple as how i hope.. sometime how i hope "him" will come for me..
my life right now is juz like the picture below...
there is onli a glim of light for me as it represent the onli happiness that i enjoy when i am at training.. the rest is juz pure darkness... fading into darkness.. byeeeee...