hahaha... boring day now.. misses ya when i am in loft... hoping to get out of here soon juz to see ya.. hahaha... but nvm lahz.. able to see ya soon... so yah.. cya soon will make me happy

now i am at loft.. with my classmate hahaha.. staying there fir 2nights.. haiz.. today match with DT win em.. haha.. happy but sad too.. my mind was totally into in.. haiz... thinking of other things tat is affecting my performace.. yah.. so bored!!!

maybe it is time tat i knock some sense into my own brain.. face the truth of life.. dun be a fool... thinking of things tat is close and is could be fake.. juz snap out of it.. there is nothing in this world which will last forever... maybe onli kinship and true love.. thinking back of things tat i heard, making me feeling upset and also make me feel like doing tons of thing... but i hold back... Now wat should i do... thing for me isn't gonna go well or smoothly for sure... Gonna think of a way to tackle the problem down... so ya... gonna wash up and prepare to go training.. today e match, is a match NPU isn't able to lose...

another sleepless night.. in fact is on and off... sleep le but very sensitive to surrounding... even a slight vibration can wake me up and even my dad woke up and went to had a sip of water i also woke up why?? becuz i am thinking of u.. yeah... junny noes why... ok hope my paper is a manageable 1...

haiz.. body ache here and there.. main thing is the leg.. haha.. pain for no reason... haiz... there is something i dun wish to blog here lahz.. so i wun write abt it as it reminds me of ya.. yah.. and this part is specially for JUNNY... "DUN EMO LAHZ... GT ME, MH,ALVAN PLUS ALL NPU PPL WITH U.. DUN GET SO EMO... CHEER UP!" yah... that is for him... hahaha... tml last paper chiong arx!

hahaha... last paper to go... now with celine at blk 71.. haiz.. she go for her dance pratice den i accompany her lor... since i nothing better to do... but the sad thing is my phone going no battery.. hahaha.. but never mind de lahz... be home by 11pm can liao... sure nothing will happen hahaha...

hahaha.. today was a freaking tired and not a good day for me.. haiz.. biomole paper dun noe how to do when i was in e exam hall, after coming out of it den i remember how to do.. hahaha.. sianz lor... but later went to meet up aaron wx to bowl.. i sux at it lahz.. haiz.. no choice dey too zai le.. hahaha.. after tat went to meet alvan and we went to town to buy aaron and alvan slipper.. hahaha.. after tat went to play jubeat but cannot play because got too mani ppl... after tat get to play lahz,.. that is very nice lahz... hahaha... shiok sia.. now studying at aaron hse studying.. hahaha.. JY!!! hahaha.. cannot slack liao...

sad... think gonna really go mug hard on thermo.. or else i wun be able to pass it.. damn.. haiz.. chiong arx... mugging time.. no more using of lappy... cya guys soon..

lol.. thinking of thing tat might be impossible.. haha.. dun noe why this will come into my mind.. hahaha.. with junny everyday lor.. now he at my hse training jubeat.. hahaha.. power lor.. hahaha... thinking of you every now and den... even when i am with junny le.. how? save me... hahaha... hu can save me... i doubt anyone can save me.. haha... own by u liao.. how!

hahaha... this is wat i ate juz now.. seems like i am a pig lor.. so sux...

Before i start to eat...
After i drank the soup...


End of the day...
I am become a pig if i eat this everyday...

one paper down... hahaha... things are spinning in my mind abt thing tat might happen in the future.. hahaha... boring day... Jubeat rox... haha.. saw ivan today...

today was suppose to study den ended up study for a while and den when on to play instead.. 2pid junny.. hahaha.. after tat i really chiong my study le.. no joke and no relax.. or else i will die... hahaha.. den after tat went home to put my bag and went to eat curry fish head with junny den go celine hse.. so ps lor.. go her hse without orange.. hahaha.. lucky we juz went there and go into her room.. hahaha... after tat went to throw a while den go home.. hahaha..
After some thoughts through my head i realise lots of thing... but not gonna type out... all this will be shown after i felt tat i had done them...

haiz.. sleepy but cannot get to bed becuz i am thinking of u.. haiz... dun noe wat to do now.. wat can i do to stop thinking of u and wat can i do to make u my gal.. things are flashing ard my head...

Today will be the day i break my words of nt scolding Vulgar.. KANINABEI CHAOCHIBAI... FUCK YOU!!! this is all that i wan to tell my freaking dad today.. out of no reason, he find problem with me.. the moment i reach home, he asked why am i out to play and when is my exam.. i reply him in an unhappy tone saying i go and study not go to play... he angrily shouted at me and told me off.. and asked me nt to call him Dad anymore.. I almost shouted "FINE" but i didn't.. FML TTM! damn freaking angry.. today had to chiong tons of studies becuz of exam and relax myself while i pool and throw disc... but came home gt all this shyt... make my life really sux!!! omg!! where are u my dear reaper!! how i hope u can come and end my fucking life!!!
i might thank him if he come to find me...

LOL... ytd i finally gt to sleep well.. but i sleep by banging my head onto my table and fall asleep.. so sianz.. now gt after effect... my right eyes cannot open for too long when i wake up.. now is ok la.. hahaha.. ytd went to jubeat... hahaha.. and of cuz study be4 it... onli gt me and jh.. hahaha.. jubeat started to make us addicted.. but i gonna overcome the addiction so i wun be going to play every now and then..

ytd night was a horrible night... can't sleep at all... and tons of sentences keep coming into my mind... but i onli remember some... like "One-sided love is poison, two-sided love is antidode for one-sided love" , "Life without love = hell, Life with wrong love = experience, Life with true love = Heaven". this are the fews i remember.had been asking myself should i propose the qns to her now... but i am worried as lots of thing will happen if i was rejected... Troubled... any suggestion that u guys can give?? Help me out...

hahahaha.. out of a sudden,Celine send me a sms to meet her so i rushed out to meet her.. and ended up is accompany her to cut her hair...after she cut her hair, we met with Junny.. and den we went to play arcade and also brought something which u can see below.. and after tat we take photos of us with it and acting cool and pose with it.. so cool right..hahaha.. after tat went home...


















hahaha.. totally no mood to write my blog... hahaha.. my mind is revolving with u...hahaha.. Now onli junny noes who i had in my heart...

haiz... my heart is now set.. after some time of sorting and assembling.. and some advice from some close buddy... now is only waiting for the time to ask u to be my gal.. but i dun think it will be fast.. hope everything turns out well and nice.. ton with NPU ppl ytd.. was fun and intersting.. ended up sleeping till 2plus... hahaha.. den e moment i woke up i saw sms-es.. i was happy to see that as i hope u will sms me.. haiz... hahaha... tat all for now..

today was a ok day for me as i had earn quick bucks once again.. hahaha... however my mind cannot stop thinking of u.. keep wanted to sms u but holded it back.. cuz i dun think u will reply my sms.. however gt to overcome the pain and show a joyful face as it is CNY.. haiz... y is this so...

lol.. earn quick bucks through mahjong again.. hahaha.. this time could had earn $100 but one of the player is my mum den she didn't give me any money!!! chicken mcnugget! hahaha.. nvm still earn 40+ den cab home... left with 30.. so sianz lor.. cya after the 1st 3 days of next year.. all ppl take break so my blog also take brea =D

haiz.. freaking tired... this is much more tiring den frisbee... hahaha.. ytd was doing housework with injured body den went online and play dota with aaron dey all.. untill 1 plus den wake up at 6 to help out my mum to do stuff and cook thing for my dead grandpa... haiz,,, den was too tired to do anything so i decide to rest but in the end got to go out and help my dad.. went out to do things till now.. haiz.. so freaking tired... now finally can take 1... hahaha.. sleeping time.. cya tonight.. happy NY eve...

wa... after IPC quiz i chiong home le... whole body was aching like hell.. damn.. when i was on train home, i dun noe why i suddenly felt damn giddy and damn freaking weak.. and when i alight at my station, i cannot walk as usual due to my legs injuries... and when i was walking home, there is times i almost fall into the drain.. oopps.. so embrassing.. hahaha.. den when i reach home, i couldn't sleep also.. sleeping is a problem as i had to lay straight.. i cannot turn my body nor hug my pillow or doreamon and once i lift my hand, it will hurt.. so i had to lay straight to sleep like a dead person.. after tat went out to help my mum carry thing despite of my pains.. so good lor.. hahaha... went out and my mum asked me to go see a sin seh... den i was suffering once again from the pain tat the sin seh gave me.. but after that my back felt better.. hahaha.. so shiok.. but leg and hand still pain.. :(

This is the Chrous of the song that i had think of during biomole quiz... which is showing how my heart is feeling right now... those bold means higher pitch
Composed by:Junkai
Sang by : Junhoa
Chrous
爱一个人，
不一定要和她在一起，
只要看到她开心，
自己也能感受到，
她的快乐。
WooHooWooo。
在我的心里面，
我已不知不觉地爱上你。
但是我，
没有勇气面对你说，
“我爱你”。
我好想知到你的心在想什么,
好让我决定是否要往前走？
这都是因为，
我爱上了你。
但是我觉得，
我们之间，
不会有结局。

juz as i expected.. today morning couldn't move both of my leg and my whole body is aching.. left leg hurts even when i rested it... right leg hurts when i am trying to climb up the stairs.. back hurts for no reason.. damn.. whole body cui le.. hope my day will be a good 1..

after so much thoughts, jh finally agreed to go with me to play jubeat... he gt S for 2 song..."own celine lor" hahaha.. so sianz.. moody all the way even after jubeat.. because we went to buy bubble tea.. damn chosen the wrong drink.. chosen something tat will make my memories flash back.. den went to frisbee, my mind was thinking of running nia so warm up run i run 10rd.. feeling was damn shiok but i still cannot pre-occupy my brain.. no mood to do anything now..haiz.. fulled of injuries today, hope will recover soon bahz... K see ya...

sianz... junny dun wan go with me to play jubeat.. but cannot blame him... becuz he is baika and it is raining so he cannot walk too much.... Y!!!! Y muz those memories flash back into my mind.. feel so sianz... dun feel like going to training anymore lor.. so bored... no mood to do anything liao.. so freaking confused... (@_")|||...emo-ing in progress

finally change my blog skin.. damn nice.. thanks to the help of Celine.. hahaha.. To sin yee:"u give me that one cannot use.. so sianz" hahaha.. so happy to change my blog.. hahaha ate chilli crab juz now damn shiok...
but ended up failed.. so use back the old one.. :P

damn.. out of nowhere, juz as i was scrolling down my list of frens, i started to think of u.. dun noe why? It was so random, i was relaxing on my sweet warm bed and looking at pictures and also scrolling to check out how mani fren i had in msn..(lame thing to do) and out of a sudden pictures of u start flashing into my small and packed head... why is this so? i can't figure it out... maybe deep in my heart i had already given my heart to u... but without anyone noticing it and even i am blind by it... but if that is true, i would be totally stuck cuz if i ask u to be my girl, and i kena reject, it will be weird if we see each other again..(which i dun really wan tat to happen)... damn.. hope tat i am able to figure out whether i had really fall in love with u..

today was a fun day as i had lot of fun... junny was funny... as when we will on our way to semb mrt station, an uncle as junny whether he need an ambulance.. hahaha.. so weird.. den we went on to meet Celine.. hahaha.. To my surprise, SOMEONE dun noe how to walk to pepper lunch.. damn.. u guys muz be wondering hu.. but confirm the person is not me.. hahahaha.. den after that we went to play jubeat... a damn 2pid game but it was fun.. junny manage to pass YMCA and went on to score better grade for other songs.. for me, i was the first timer... but i manage to pass YMCA and move on to others song, but of cuz the grade wasn't that good.. hahaha.. but still pass.. den Celine hu had play the game for quite sometime eventually she lose to junny in a song.. so power.. hahaha.. after tat went to play pool.. i lost one of the match.. but it was fun.. this tells me that my pool de-prove alot.. and i had to work on it when i had spare time or when i am loaded with cash.. hahaha.. took 1 picture of Celine playing and 1 picture of junny..

hahaha.. today was an boring day for me as i had nothing to do even though i go school... at the end meet celine to go play jubeat... but ended up play bball onli... she almost win jh lor... junny u noob la... hahaha.. so freaking sianz... finally today i had no unhappy flashback memories.. hope for the best... but today had a fight with my parent... so freaking angry.. in their mind, using of laptop is onli for the use for gaming.. cannot be other purpose de.. so old fashion lor

sat was another terrible day for me as i didn't really play well for frisbee and the unhappy stuff kept flashing back to my mind.. dun noe why.. haiz... i realise that it is impossible for me to live with it as i should try to forget the unhappy things and move on in my life or else i will still be at where i gt hurt.. not all wound will heal fast, i muz try to find a way to forget my sad memory so i am able to live happily.. sunday was a boring day for me as i went to my grandma hse... super bored... but still got to accompany my mum lahz.. no choice.. haiz.. wonder how is school today...

back to blog... things hasn't been going well for me for this whole week.. but life still have to go on, i still had to train hard for IVP... Training had been fun and exciting but every now and then,for the past few days,I had been try to be as cheerful as possible but it is all an act which i tried to fool myself and also not to let anyone know abt it.. but how long can i fool myself?? haiz... why muz all the unhappy memories flash back... why muz it flash back constantly and kept flashing since monday.. tons of things that will make me drop tears... but still hold it back as i am a man, a man can only shed blood but not tears... when can the unhappy memories stop flashing back.. cann't i have a peaceful time...tons of thing came into my small and packed mind.. which make me feel damn troubled and dun feel like moving on in life... had a urge to juz stop my life story right here in 2010... but things aren't so simple as how i hope.. sometime how i hope "him" will come for me..
my life right now is juz like the picture below...
there is onli a glim of light for me as it represent the onli happiness that i enjoy when i am at training.. the rest is juz pure darkness... fading into darkness.. byeeeee...